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2007-06-16T23:03:18Z

Hey guys, don't know if I still have any friends linked to this, but if I do I just want to tell you that I am alive and everything is going well...update more later!!

It's been a while...

2006-06-03T18:08:38Z

Ok, so I haven't updated in like....months. To those who actually read my journal, I really am sorry. Here's what has been going on in my life. We moved to Paducah KY back in November. I am currently working at Dillard's in the lingerie department, and Philip is working for the same company he worked for when we lived there a couple of years ago. I am still working on getting a teaching job, but it will have to be in a different state I'm sure. Since I don't have my certification, I am interested in teaching for a private school. So, we'll see. My son will be 4 next month (July 6) and I can hardly believe it. Where have the last 4 years gone? Oh well. Anyway, not really a whole lot has been going on with me. Just trying to make ends meet right now. I'm just tired and stressed and about ready to just give up, but I know I can't. At least I'm not as stressed as I was living in Nashville. I have definitely decided not to live in another big city. I like the smaller places much better-quieter and keeps me sane. :P
Well, I know I haven't written much, but I don't have much else to say. I will try to do better about keeping up with my journal (so those of you who read it will know what is going on with me). I hope everyone is doing well and I'll write again later!

my weekend...

2005-10-24T23:39:42Z

Ok, I have so news for whoever is interested...if anyone will remember how bad I needed to get out of my job situation? Well, I have my 2 week notice today...we have decided to move back to Paducah KY. I do not want my son to go to metro schools and Paducah has good schools, plus I already have a job. I start on Monday, November 7. So, I have to do some heavy duty packing between now and then. Jeffrey and I are going to stay with my inlaws for 3 weeks, and then we are moving into an apartment the first of December. We've already talked to the guy about renting it. We are planning on getting a house in about a year. The only now is I need to find a relatively inexpensive car that is safe and gets decent gas mileage. I am so excited, and I feel so calm about this. I am so ready to be out of Nashville. I had to move back here to realize that I want to live in a smaller city, and I want to be in a safe environment. Yay me!

more on my weekend

2005-10-18T00:13:24Z

Well, my father in law emailed us the estimate he got...if we are "lucky" it would cost $1400 to fix my car...unlucky would be $2200 or more...so, we have pretty much decided it's time to get another car. I have no idea how we are going to pay for it or anything, but my car is not worth that much to get fixed. So, any ideas on cars??? I need something safe and affordable with decent gas mileage. Any help would be appreciated, as would prayers. I have no idea how we are going to get through this...but I know one thing...we needed our eyes opened and God did that in a huge way. I'm not saying this is a blessing in disguise (although it might be) but we needed a wake up call. So, we are changing our ways and we'll just see what happens. I just don't know how we are going to get through the next couple of weeks. We have no money...at all...
Help me Lord to trust in You...I'm gonna need it.

the weekend from hell....

2005-10-17T01:47:35Z

Ok, Friday I left work early to go to an interview in Paducah KY. I get to mile marker 22 and my car dies...totally. I am at home in Nashville now and my car is still in Paducah. I have to call my husband to come get me, which he does. We got by his grandfather's house because he had a truck we could borrow. Yeah, we get to Clarksville and that dies too. Thankfully after an hour we got it started and home. I am so stressed because I don't have the money to get my car fixed or a new car. Any prayers would be helpful! I will update more later!

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2005-09-29T23:30:32Z

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boredom

2005-09-14T21:29:04Z

I am just sitting here in my house watching Maury on tv...I like Maury...and I have nothing else to do. I haven't been feeling good the past few days so I finally broke down and took today off work to rest and regain my strength. I still feel kinda bad, but at least I'm feeling a bit better. I have been trying to find a new job...I had a job teaching music lessons, but I'm not going to be doing that...it has kind of fallen through and even though I have a bachelor degree in music I'm not really sure that is what I'm supposed to do...I don't know anymore...I do know that I am ready to get out of Nashville...I want to raise my son and any other kids I may have in the next couple of years in a small town, not here. I want out of this apartment, and we won't be able to get a house until my husband's credit rating goes up a little bit so we can get 100% financing. I'm just so stressed about everything...anyone know of any good stress relievers??? If so I need those ideas...anything would be helpful!!
Well, that's about all I know for now. Maybe someone will read this and actually comment... *sigh*

sick

2005-08-29T12:13:25Z

Wow I haven't updated in a while...nothing much has been going on except that my son was sick all weekend and I've been sick since yesterday. And it's not a fun kind of sick either (not like any of it is really fun). I feel horrible, and this is the second day of work I've missed. I have to go tomorrow, whether I feel like crap or not. I wish I could work at home and be at home with my son, but I don't trust some of those work at home things. Does anyone who reads my journal know of someone who works from home? If so, any ideas on how I can get started to do that? That's what I would love to do more than anything...and once we get a house I would love to teach lessons from there and hopefully have another baby. Ah, plans...who knows if they will work out or not. I used to think my drea was to teach elementary music, but I think God is leading me in a different direction. I'm still looking for guidance on that one.
Anyway, I hope everyone has a great Monday and someone please reply to this. :)

musicwoman @ 2005-07-25T10:38:00

2005-07-25T15:38:47Z

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHANA!!!

YAY!!!

2005-07-22T02:30:07Z

I have my computer back up and running!! Now I can actually post to your comments!!! :P

quick note

2005-07-11T15:39:08Z

Sorry I haven't been posting...my computer at home is down and we are awaiting a new motherboard. So I hope everyone is doing well and I should be back on in a week or so!!

sunday night

2005-06-26T23:09:16Z

Well, I guess it's about time to update again. It's been an ok weekend...I've had a really bad cold all weekend, so I haven't really been feeling all that great today. Oh well. It'll get better eventually. My son's lip is finally looking better (no thanks to the ER doctor) and we are all going to Paducah for the 4th weekend and celebrate my son's 3rd birthday with Philip's family, and then a couple of weeks later we are going to celebrate his birthday with my family. (my grandparents will be here from florida so they want to celebrate) Jeffrey won't mind I don't think.
Ok, to whomever reads this, my husband and I really need some prayers. We are in some financial trouble (we have been in worse, but it is bad enough) and it seems like every time we take a step forward we have to take 2 steps back...it is getting so frustrating! I'm not going to be able to give my son the kind of birthday I wanted to give him...we are going to get him a tricycle and that's about it. I just feel so low about money right now...and it is so hard to stay positive. Any prayers would be greatly appreciated!

excitment...

2005-06-22T00:09:15Z

Well, we had some excitement yesterday...I get a call at work about 10:15...apparently a kid at my son's daycare pushed him off of a bench (they were coloring at a table) and Jeffrey hit his chin on the table...and yep, you guessed it...his teeth pretty much went right through his lip. We went to the emergency room, but thankfully he didn't need stitches (only took $100 for the ER doctor to tell me that...arg)
So I'm thankful that Jeffrey is ok, but now I feel like we pretty much wasted that money...since he didn't get anything from the doctor. That is so aggravating. I hate money, and my husband and I are trying to get out of debt and it seems like the harder we try something else happens. I'm so tired of having to struggle to make ends meet. I'm hoping for the light at the end of the tunnel, but so far all I see is darkness. How depressing.

sick

2005-06-08T00:06:35Z

My husband and I have been sick all day today and all day yesterday-thankfully my son is healthy!! It must be some kind of virus or something-I just ate some toast and it is the only think I've eaten since yesterday morning. I'm hoping it stays down. :(
Nothing exciting has been going on. We went to Paducah over the weekend to visit Philip's parents. It was a good and mostly relaxing weekend. I've been starting to plan for my son's third birthday-I can't believe he is almost 3!!!
Anyway, I will post more later.

friday night fun

2005-05-24T01:10:26Z

Ok, Friday night I had my orientation for my new job. There are 9 of us hired to start teaching in Nashville with this particular company. I start mid to late August, which is fine. I am so excited about starting though! Anyway, after orientation we all went downtown for awhile. My boss is so cool! We were just laughing and hanging out and I didn't get home til almost 1:30am. I haven't been out that late since I was in college! It was kinda nice! Anyway, I am just ready for August to hit so I can start teaching! There is a possibility of moving to Columbus Ohio for this job as well...I'm going to have to pray about it and see what God wants me to do...if it was up to just me I'd probably already be there! I am just so thankful I am getting out of my bad job situation in about 2 1/2 months. GOD IS SO GOOD!!! :D

it's official...

2005-05-19T22:23:31Z

I have the job...100%. I find out tomorrow night when I start. I am sooooo excited!! I'm actually putting my 4 years of college to good use!! For those who don't know, I'm going to be teaching music lessons to people from ages 3-adult on pretty much whatever they want to do. I'm getting training for Suzuki so I will be able to teach that as well. I can't wait!! :)

musicwoman @ 2005-05-14T22:45:00

2005-05-15T03:49:42Z

I have a new job!!!! YAY ME!!!
I had an interview tonight for a job teaching music lessons-Shana, you probably remember me talking about this-I went to Columbus Ohio for an interview 2 years ago and didn't get the job...well, they are hiring for their Nashville location and I got hired. :) I will be teaching lessons to kids in their homes full time. I can't wait to get started. I was told I would get an email this week telling me when I start. I wish I could start on Monday!! I am so thrilled to actually be doing something that I went to school for. Now I can put my Bachelor's of Music degree to good use!! Praise God for today, and for giving me the opportunity to get out of a really bad working enviroment to doing something I want to do. YAY!!!

long time no say...

2005-05-13T21:35:55Z

I have been really busy, which is why I haven't been posting lately. I do have some news though, but you all who read my journal will have to be in suspense until tomorrow night. :P I just don't want to get my hopes up. Anyway, just wanted everyone to know that yes, I am still alive and I will post more later!

musicwoman @ 2005-05-08T07:37:00

2005-05-08T12:38:53Z

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY to all of the mothers out there!!!
I hope everyone has a wonderful day today, and can spend some time with mom!!! :)

job possibility...

2005-04-27T01:22:05Z

Ok, pray for me, and I'm praying hard as well. The girl who is the orchestra assistant at my church is moving to Houston with her husband, and they are wanting to fill the position, and most likely make it from part time to full time. I would love to do this. First of all, I love my church, and second of all I would be around music. My orchestra director sent out an email about this just today, so I'm gonna be doing some talking and praying to God tonight. I have been really unhappy in my job lately, and this would be such an awesome opportunity. I just wanted to update everyone and I'll keep you updated!! Love you all!

staying at home with a sick 2 1/2 year old equals.....

2005-04-22T19:49:08Z

not much fun :P He got sick at daycare yesterday, and they don't want him to come back if he's been sick within 24 hours...so I got to stay home with him today (Philip was on duty yesterday). I think he is feeling better, he is just so congested. Poor thing. My husband and I gave him a haircut the other day...I call him my military boy now...he looks just like an army kid. :) It is so cute.
Anyway, just wanted to update everyone on my fun day! Hope everyone has a great weekend!

somewhat venting...

2005-04-21T01:44:52Z

Another week in the life of Jessica-starting with last Thursday:
Thursday-MRI of my head (I've been having really bad headaches pretty consistently for about 3 months)
Friday-Get results of MRI...ok, as no surprise to me, the headaches are mostly due to stress and tension, but there did show some sinus infection so I am now on 3 (yes, 3) different medications to get this cleared up...sounds like fun, huh?
Saturday-Went in to work to make up some time from Friday because I had to leave early for being sick :(
Sunday-Was ok
Monday-Computer system was very slow...had people waiting for a long time to get precerts for mri and ct scans
Tuesday-Same as Monday, but I went to talk to my manager-the 2 girls that sit behind me talk all day long, and it gets really distracting when I'm on the phone and trying to listen to what they want and I hear in the background all the new info on their love lives...um, you are on the clock...work...and part of my problem is that I was stressed but anyway I felt better after talking to my manager
Wednesday (today)-One of said girls gives me an evil look when she comes back from lunch...I ask where she went to lunch, she said it was none of my business, so I asked what was wrong and she told me not to talk or even look at her...I later found out that my supervisor had spoken with a couple of team leads (the people who can answer all our questions) and one of them took it upon herself to tell this girl that I was the one who had said something...just to cause trouble...um, no...so I had a very crappy day today :(
Thankfully, the weekend is only 2 days away!!! :)
Oh, and the maestro for the Nashville Symphony died Monday morning at age 75-he died from non-Hodgkins Lymphoma. How sad.
Anyway, that's the news of my life. Hope everyone else had a better day than me!!

i guess there are a few out there who read...

2005-04-02T04:45:08Z

Ok, I guess I'll have to start posting more now...since people are actually interested in reading my journal!! Yay for me!! I watched an interesting movie tonight...Closer...anyone else seen it? It was kinda weird, but very well cast. I think Clive Owen is gorgeous (hehehe). Anyway, I hope everyone has a great weekend...and I will update again soon..I promise!!!

does anyone read my journal?

2005-04-01T22:43:37Z

Anyone??? Anyone at all? :(

it is gorgeous outside

2005-03-31T22:14:19Z

I love this weather! Ok, for those 2 or 3 people who read my journal, here is my long-awaited update. :P In job news, I'm sending in an application to each elementary school at a non-denomination Christian school. I have my resume and my application done...I just have to find an envelope and send it...on my list for tonight!!! YAY!! *keeps fingers crossed*
Easter weekend was good...I play in my church's orchestra, and I had to play in both services...so it made for a long morning. Jeffrey enjoyed playing with all the kids though...he came with his momma. :D Jeffrey is doing well in his speech. I have a meeting on Monday with two women from TEIS (who are paying for the speech therapy) to talk about getting Jeffrey into a preschool in August. I am so psyched about that! But, if the job with the school comes through, he'll be able to go to that school. I took him to speech yesterday, and we have found that flash cards are working best with Jeffrey. Lori (the therapist) thinks that the reason he isn't talking is because he can't form the sounds..so that is what she is working on. She held up a card that had a finger with a band aid on it and asked Jeff to say "Boo-Boo". Jeffrey looked at the card and promptly pointed at the band-aid and said, "Oh, NO!!!" It was so funny. I love my little man...he's not a baby anymore. :( We have been working on the potty training...still hasn't happened yet but he does go through all the motions...my goal is to have him potty trained by the end of the summer.
Um, what else...I watched American Idol last night. I'm glad that Anwar didn't leave! I think they made "almost" the right choice. Of course, I think they are slowly picking off all the girls. But what do I know....
Anyway, there is so much I should probably stay, but I'll save it for another day. I hope everyone is having a wonderful day!